This thing you “feel” drawn to is it the Lord or just heartburn? What I mean is are you really connected with Him so that you can hear His guiding or is it just you making a decision based on how you think you need to serve Him?
Callings are not typically easy, but they are also usually very clear. If you cant work through the family tension of a situation, then maybe God didn’t ordain it.
I am a dreamer, but that doesn’t mean God needs me to do all the things I dream up. He has a plan and will use us if we are wait for Him to guide us. If i have a urge to accomplish something for God, I might need to ask Him for the strength and word to get the concept in the heart of my family.
He will always provide as long as we ask in line with His will.
Are you in His will?