Everyone seems to want to escape from their realities. Avoiding or hiding from the circumstances they find themselves in.
What if the circumstances and realities in our lives where the things we needed to steer towards and find a better understanding of them? Maybe we could find a way to eliminate them or live in them without fear and loathing.
Just a thought, but maybe God brought you to this point to show you something. Maybe you brought yourself here and to get back to a loving God you need to face it head on.